Tiada Dia

In some terrible way i feel so good right now.. no more 'Dia' dalam hidupku.. i miss him much but he doesnt need me.. im just a F*&^%ing rebound.. it sux but hey.. i will survive.. i always do.. it hurts more n more but its ok.. i think that wounds will heal perfectly in the end.. n i will find new love.. new life..

This is how I feel

Raya n kete :P

Hari ni raya ke-6. Tapi Aku sikit pun belum rasa kemeriahan raya tu. Dahla aku demam.. huhuk.. Berat sangat kepala ni.. Semalam g umah Uncle kat Bukit Jelutong tapi disebabkan x sihat tu huhuhu.. sumenye serba x kena.. mebbe penat sgt kot. terlalu lama kat kedai Tayar :P

Dah tukar tayar saiz besa sket, skali absorber plak wat hal.. hish.. ada2 je.. bila la plak nak tukar absorber tu.. hmm.. demam2 ni malas sgt nk keluar.. tapi kete Aku.. huhu.. cane la tu..bia la dia tersadai kat ctu dulu.. hmm..

Hari Raya

Hari ni Hari Raya Pertama :( hati rasa gembira bercampur duka.. Yang disayang terpaksa dibiarkan jauh disudut hati, yang dicinta telah lama dibiarkan pergi.. Raya kali ni Aku amat kesal sekali dengan diri Aku..

Ya ALLAH ampunkan hambamu.. Aku gagal dalam hubunganku sesama manusia.. Aku lalai menunaikan tanggungjawabku.. Berikanlah petunjuk dan hidayah kepada hambamu ini ya ALLAH..

Hati

Hati ini...

Terasa dikhianati bila kata-kata kasih dan sayang itu sekadar mainan di bibir..

Terasa dikhianati apabila janji hanyalah kata-kata yang tidak mampu ditunaikan..

Sedangkan Aku...

Setiap kata kasih sayang lahir dari hati kecil ini..

Aku tidak pandai bermain dengan perasaan kerana Aku sendiri tahu betapa peritnya jika dipermainkan..

Kasih dan sayang disalah erti..

Seharusnya Aku mengundur diri..

The LOVE is definitely gone..

Dah terlalu lama Dia mendiamkan diri. Membuat Aku banyak berfikir tentang diri Aku sendiri. Diam sungguh Dia. Bila Aku call cakap pun nak xnak je. Lama-lama Aku jadi semakin sedih. Apa salah Aku? Salah ke Aku sayang kat Dia? Salah ke Aku risaukan Dia?

Lama-lama Aku rasa macam Aku je yang sayang amat sangat kat Dia.. siang malam Aku teringat kat Dia (angau ke apa?!) mungkin memang Aku bertepuk sebelah tangan. Sayangkan seseorang yang hatinya mungkin tidak akan Aku miliki buat selama-lamanya. Xde tempat untuk Aku dalam hati Dia. Hadir Aku hanya sementara buat mengubat luka. Aku ibarat

Habis Madu, Sepah Dibuang

Seharusnya Aku pergi membawa Hati sebelum luka lama terguris kembali.

The LOVE will NEVER be gone.. I wrote it just to make me feel better.. when deep down inside I HURT so much..

Aku harap Dia dapat maafkan Aku.. Dengan kesedihan Aku tulis tajuk diatas.. Aku disalah erti.. Semua ni salah Aku..

Pernah

Kita tidak betul dengan mengatakan orang lain salah dan kita tidak semestinya salah hanya kerana orang lain berjaya meyakinkan dirinya adalah betul..

Ramadhan

Aku betul-betul x faham kenapa tahun ni Aku rasa amat kehilangan.. kehilangan arah.. kehilangan tujuan.. Ramadhan yang seharusnya Aku sambut dan raikan dengan penuh rasa kegembiraan dan keinsafan telah Aku bazirkan.. sepatutnya Aku penuhkan masa Aku dengan amal ibadat tapi Aku.. ahhhh.. Aku sangat hampa dengan diri Aku..

Aduhai..

By the looks of it.. its not too good.. huhuk.. anyways, disebabkan oleh inilah Dia sangat x hepi.. wish I could help :(

Aku dan Dia

Hari ni Aku jumpa Dia.. dekat Stadium Nasional Bukit Jalil.. (xbestnye tempat nak jumpa :P tapi apa kan daya ini je tempat terdekat yg Aku tau nak g.. he he..) Anyway, Aku jumpa dia dah petang sgt.. hampir masa nak berbuka.. I end up berbuka dengan family Dia.. waaaaa malunyer.. Aku segan dengan mak Dia.. huhuk.. Tapi mak Dia sgt comel :) so Aku xla rasa kekok sgt.. Ramai pulak tu adik beradik Dia.. sumenye lelaki.. yg kechik je perempuan (sangat comel adik Mien).. Dalam rasa segan tu Aku rasa hepi la jugak sbb at least Aku dapat jumpa Dia n Aku x hampakan Dia :) Lagipun Aku sayang Dia.. Dia kan kawan Aku..

Aku : Hari ni Aku hepi sangat aku harap Dia pun sama :)

Esok

Esok Aku jumpa Dia :) maybe nak berbuka sama-sama.. nak berbuka katne aku pun xtau.. xpasti.. yang pastinya Aku mesti nak kena jumpa Dia.. sian Dia dtg dari jauh nak jumpa Aku.. I cannot be so selfish right.. so hari ni Aku nak cari peta sbb aku xtau mcm mana nak g sana.. hehe.. Aku nak g sbb Aku sayang Dia..

Lelaki ini?

Kasih, kenanganku
Ingatkah saat saat dulu
Kasih, apakah dirimu
Merasakan semua itu

Ke mana pun langkahku pergi
Ku masih melihat bayanganmu cintaku
Dan kemana pun arah anginku berlari
Hati ini masih kau miliki

Lelaki ini yang selalu mencintamu
Selalu, tanpa ragu
Lelaki ini yang selalu memuja
Hanya dirimu
Yang bertakhta dalam sanubariku
Sanubari ku
Aku yang mencintakan mu
Hanya dirimu…

Karena cintaku, tak berbatas waktu
Karena cintaku, tak mengenal jenuh hatimu
Hatimu…







Aku : Dia kata lagu ni untuk aku.. he he.. Comelnya..

Kawan :)

Bahagia rasanya bila kita ada kawan.. :) menyayangi dan rasa disayangi.. hmm miss that feeling.. Bila Dia ada Aku rasa amat bahagia.. Aku harap Dia akan jadi kawan Aku untuk selama-lamanya.. Amin..

Love?

Love, Romance?

Lelaki Ini

Kasih, kenanganku
Ingatkah saat saat dulu
Kasih, apakah dirimu
Merasakan semua itu
Kemanapun langkahku pergi
Ku masih melihat bayanganmu cintaku
Dan kemanapun arah anginku berlari
Hati ini masih kau miliki

Chorus:
Lelaki ini yang selalu mencintamu
Selalu, tanpa ragu
Lelaki ini yang selalu memuja
Hanya dirimu
Yang bertakhta dalam sanubariku

Sanubari ku
Aku yang mencintakan mu
Hanya dirimu?

Bridge:
Karena cintaku, tak berbatas waktu
Karena cintaku, tak mengenal jenuh hatimu
Hatimu?

Malu Tapi Mahu

verse
Terpana aku,dikau menuju
di depan mata,memanggil nama ku
menyapa mesra,berbisik nada manja
diri, rasa bagai nak melayang

di hati mula, tertanya tanya
resah gelisah di setiap masa
apakah benar ku sudah tergoda
ku malu untuk menyatakan nya

pre-chorus
ku malu mengaku, kau dihatiku
ku malu merindu, kau takkan tahu
ku malu bertemu, menatap mata mu
ku malu kupendam, rahsia hatiku

chorus
oh apa harus ku simpan saja
cinta yang bermain di jiwa
tak mampu lagi ku tunggu
ku malu tapi ku mahu cinta mu

diriku bukanlah pujangga
yang bijak bermadah kata
haruskah ku diam saja
ku malu tapi ku mahu cinta mu

verse
berdebar debar tidak ku sabar
menanti saat --kita bersua
hendak ku khabarkan hasrat di jiwa
namun pasti diri ku terkaku

di hati mula, tertanya tanya
resah gelisah di setiap masa
apakah benar kusudah sedia
masih ku malu menyatakan nya

chorus

bridge
oh kasih yang tercipta
pasti tiada tandingannya
bimbang hati ini jika
kau tak membalas cinta ku yang ada
makin terseksa di jiwa
tiap kali ku mencuba
melagu kata namun lidah ku kelu tak berdaya

penerbit: jupiter-8
lagu: audi mok/ lirik: nurfatima

S M I L E 4 M E

Hide the pain behind the smile.. well, it keeps me happy.. positive and alive..

Sleep? Anyone..

It's been a while since the last time..

Maybe im just too busy working. This job is taking so much of my time :P ha ha.. There are so many things that i can't afford to do lately.. but sleep i havent been deprived of yet :P

Ever since im working, i've been sleeping much. Which is amazing really. But then to think again it's the tiredness which has driven my body to sleep, rest.

Well, look on the bright side.. at least I can wake up n have a great day! ha ha..

Another Sleepless Night

It's my first day at work.. Feels like hell cuz I m soooo tired.. I m not suposed to start today but my dad.. well, whatever.. It's over.. d day is over.. tomorrow is yet to come.. yet another day to face.. well, I hav no choice hav I? ha ha..

Anand once told me,

"Stay focussed and don't let the pressure eat you away. Just give your best. You will definitely succeed in all your future endeavours :) n take it lite when the goin gets harder 4 ya"

Hey Annu.. I miss u.. ^_^

Thanx Luv

BROKEN

It’s really late now. Or maybe it is just really early for some people the clock shows the time, 1:43am. I’m sitting here in my room. Me sleepy eyes tells me to sleep but the urge is too strong. The music player is playing the same tune over and over again. I’m listening to Dig by INCUBUS. Somehow, Brandon Boyd’s voice does not seem to bore me. Not even a bit. Aww… I’ll admit it… I LOVE his voice *wink*wink*

My sleepless nights will soon be over (I hope ^_^). I will need enough sleep soon so that I will be able to wake up and get my lazy ass to work. I have only a few days left to get my biological clock fixed. I am still finding ways and means to do that (Yet I still stay up so late ^o^).

This whole broken biological clock story started when I studied in Kota Kinabalu (KK), Sabah (a part of Malaysia in the isle of Borneo). It’s an hour earlier than where I am, in Kuala Lumpur (KL). Every single time I fly back to KK and from KK I have to adjust myself all over again. It was since that instance my biological clock was rendered with. I used to sleep on time and wake up precisely at the time I wanted to without even needing an alarm clock. My biological clock was working fine but not at the moment.

Then I had to fly to UK which was -8hours from where I am in KL. It took me a few days to really adjust to the time difference. Then again flying back to KL, Sabah and finally back to KL all in one go has really made me so tired. All this flying story is just not for me (it really spoils my mood for traveling though cuz on the opposite of it I LOVE traveling). It’s this broken biological clock that I’m trying so hard to fix. Huhuhu…

I’m amazed how some people can manage to fix theirs so easily and how some who don’t even sleep for days (tell me what’s your secret Ji.. huhu) could manage to make their way through life. How in the world do you manage to do that? How on earth can you perform at your best when you are deprived of sleep? Will someone please tell me…?

If I sleep late then I’ll wake up late ^_^ which will be difficult soon cuz I need to be at work on time or I’ll b out of there sooner than u can imagine.

I really need a fix… will someone please help me…

Ouch! My back hurts..

If you have lower back pain, you are not alone. Nearly everyone at some point has back pain that interferes with work, routine daily activities, or recreation. Fortunately, most occurrences of low back pain go away within a few days. Others take much longer to resolve or lead to more serious conditions.

When it comes to my case, I think it's because I spend so much time sitting here stiff on the chair facing this notebook of mine. Talk about ERGONOMICS. I definitely need to get a new chair :) with sufficient back and neck support (btw, I think it will really burn a hole in my pocket). Well, at least i dont have to suffer this pain anymore right?

Some people say relaxing will take away the pain. Well, it does. The importance of relaxation in controlling and treating disease as well as back pain is now starting to be recognized by the general public as well as the medical profession though to be honest the public don't always understand its effectiveness.

"Relaxation techniques have a definite place in the healing process of the body, With certain types of back pain the importance of relaxation is increased, since stress and emotional disposition plays a large part in a sufferers life due to their constant pain."

Kim Standerline

Prayer is a form of relaxation and meditation that works wonders for some people if they have faith. For me, it works the best :) it gives me peace, tranquility and relaxation just by praying. It would definitely relieve my stress to pray and meditate. I hope it does for everyone else as well.

But this pain, it only goes away when I lie down and apply balm :D or some other kind of analgesic cream e.g: deep heat. It really feels good afterwards.

One more thing I could do to make this pain go away for a while. Prevent myself from spending so much time facing this notebook :D but I cant do that can I? The urge is too great to seperate me from this position. Well, I guess I have to live with the back ache then.. :P

LiL' Star

By Kelis

There is nothing special about me
I am just a lil star
If it seems like I'm shining brightly
It's probably a reflection of something you already are
I forget about myself sometime
When there's so many other around
When deep inside you feels darkest
That is where I can always be found
That is where I can always be found
That is where I can always be found

Just keep trying and trying
It's just a matter of timing
Though the grinding is tiring
Don't let 'em stop you from smiling
Just keep trying and trying
Sooner or later you'll find it
It's surprising how inspiring
It is to see you shining
Cause in the dark of the night you're all i can see
and you sure look like a star to me

There is nothing special about me
I am just a lil starIf you try to reach out an touch me
you'll see I'm not really that far
I may not be the brightest nor am I the last one you’ll see
But as long as you notice, that’s just fine with me
Everything’s just fine with me
Everything’s just fine with me

Just keep trying and trying
It's just a matter of timing
Though the grinding is tiring
Don't let 'em stop you from smiling
Just keep trying and trying
Sooner or later you'll find it
It's surprising how inspiring
It is to see you shining
Cause in the dark of the night you're all i can see
and you sure look like a star to me

There is nothing special about me
I am just a lil star
I’ve been running and jumping, but barely
Getting, getting over the bar
I plan on being much more than I, am but that's in do time
But until then I'm guilty, and being humans my crime
Being human that is my crime
Being human that is my crime

Just keep trying and trying
It's just a matter of timing
Though the grinding is tiring
Don't let 'em stop you from smiling
Just keep trying and trying
Sooner of later you'll find it
It's surprising how inspiring
It is to see you shining
Cause in the dark of the night you're all i can see
and you sure look like a star to me

Lights

It's the nights which teaches you to see the beauty of lights.

S l e e p w a l k e r

By The Wallflowers

Maybe I could be the one they adore
That could be my reputation
It's where I'm from that lets them think I'm a whore
I'm an educated virgin

Sleepwalker, don't be shy
Now don't open your eyes tonight
You'll be the one that defends my life
While I'm dead asleep dreamin'

Cupid, don't draw back your bow
Sam Cooke didn't know what I know
I'll never be your valentine
The sleepwalker in me
And God only know that
I've tried

Let me in, let me drown or learn how to swim
Just don't leave me at the window
I could be the one to be your next best friend
You may need someone to hold you

Sleepwalker, take this knife
You may see someone tonight
You'd be the one that saves my life
When I'm dead asleep dreamin'

Cupid, don't draw back your bow
Sam Cooke didn't know what I know
I'll never be your valentine
The sleepwalker in me
And God only know that I've tried

I'm in your movie and everyone looks sad
But I can hear you, your voice, the laughtrack
But you never saw my best scene
The one where I sleep
Sleepwalk into your dreams

Now, sleepwalker, what's my line
It's only a matter of time
Until I learn to open up my eyes
When I'm dead asleep dreamin'

Cupid, don't draw back your bow
Sam Cooke didn't know what I know
I'll never be your valentine
The sleepwalker in me

Now, the sleepwalker in me
Now, the sleepwalker in me
And God only know that I've tried

Somnambulism

The term somnambulism comes from the Latin words for sleep (somnus) and walking (ambulus). A typical sleepwalking episode is rather short. Sleepwalkers may simply appear awake, or exhibit complicated activity such as driving a car, while asleep.

Sleepwalking (also called noctambulism or somnambulism), under the larger category of parasomnia, is a sleep disorder where the sufferer engages in activities that are normally associated with wakefulness while asleep or in a sleeplike state. Sleepwalkers (somnambulists) are aroused out of their deep sleep during motor activity, which usually includes, but is not limited to, walking.

A sleepwalker can go back to sleep some place other than bed, depending on how far he or she has walked. Sleepwalkers are usually unaware of their activity. Some cases of autonomic (independently functioning) behavior that occur with sleepwalking involve dressing and even eating.

What causes sleepwalking is not known, though most people have sleepwalked on at least one occasion. Sleepwalking poses no serious health threat to those who experience it, although the risk of injury, however minor, is a matter of concern.