Friday, March 30, 2007

Another Sleepless Night

It's my first day at work.. Feels like hell cuz I m soooo tired.. I m not suposed to start today but my dad.. well, whatever.. It's over.. d day is over.. tomorrow is yet to come.. yet another day to face.. well, I hav no choice hav I? ha ha..

Anand once told me,
"Stay focussed and don't let the pressure eat you away. Just give your best. You will definitely succeed in all your future endeavours :) n take it lite when the goin gets harder 4 ya"
Hey Annu.. I miss u.. ^_^
Thanx Luv

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

BROKEN

It’s really late now. Or maybe it is just really early for some people the clock shows the time, 1:43am. I’m sitting here in my room. Me sleepy eyes tells me to sleep but the urge is too strong. The music player is playing the same tune over and over again. I’m listening to Dig by INCUBUS. Somehow, Brandon Boyd’s voice does not seem to bore me. Not even a bit. Aww… I’ll admit it… I LOVE his voice *wink*wink*

My sleepless nights will soon be over (I hope ^_^). I will need enough sleep soon so that I will be able to wake up and get my lazy ass to work. I have only a few days left to get my biological clock fixed. I am still finding ways and means to do that (Yet I still stay up so late ^o^).

This whole broken biological clock story started when I studied in Kota Kinabalu (KK), Sabah (a part of Malaysia in the isle of Borneo). It’s an hour earlier than where I am, in Kuala Lumpur (KL). Every single time I fly back to KK and from KK I have to adjust myself all over again. It was since that instance my biological clock was rendered with. I used to sleep on time and wake up precisely at the time I wanted to without even needing an alarm clock. My biological clock was working fine but not at the moment.

Then I had to fly to UK which was -8hours from where I am in KL. It took me a few days to really adjust to the time difference. Then again flying back to KL, Sabah and finally back to KL all in one go has really made me so tired. All this flying story is just not for me (it really spoils my mood for traveling though cuz on the opposite of it I LOVE traveling). It’s this broken biological clock that I’m trying so hard to fix. Huhuhu…

I’m amazed how some people can manage to fix theirs so easily and how some who don’t even sleep for days (tell me what’s your secret Ji.. huhu) could manage to make their way through life. How in the world do you manage to do that? How on earth can you perform at your best when you are deprived of sleep? Will someone please tell me…?

If I sleep late then I’ll wake up late ^_^ which will be difficult soon cuz I need to be at work on time or I’ll b out of there sooner than u can imagine.

I really need a fix… will someone please help me…

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Ouch! My back hurts..

If you have lower back pain, you are not alone. Nearly everyone at some point has back pain that interferes with work, routine daily activities, or recreation. Fortunately, most occurrences of low back pain go away within a few days. Others take much longer to resolve or lead to more serious conditions.

When it comes to my case, I think it's because I spend so much time sitting here stiff on the chair facing this notebook of mine. Talk about ERGONOMICS. I definitely need to get a new chair :) with sufficient back and neck support (btw, I think it will really burn a hole in my pocket). Well, at least i dont have to suffer this pain anymore right?

Some people say relaxing will take away the pain. Well, it does. The importance of relaxation in controlling and treating disease as well as back pain is now starting to be recognized by the general public as well as the medical profession though to be honest the public don't always understand its effectiveness.
"Relaxation techniques have a definite place in the healing process of the body, With certain types of back pain the importance of relaxation is increased, since stress and emotional disposition plays a large part in a sufferers life due to their constant pain."
Kim Standerline
Prayer is a form of relaxation and meditation that works wonders for some people if they have faith. For me, it works the best :) it gives me peace, tranquility and relaxation just by praying. It would definitely relieve my stress to pray and meditate. I hope it does for everyone else as well.

But this pain, it only goes away when I lie down and apply balm :D or some other kind of analgesic cream e.g: deep heat. It really feels good afterwards.

One more thing I could do to make this pain go away for a while. Prevent myself from spending so much time facing this notebook :D but I cant do that can I? The urge is too great to seperate me from this position. Well, I guess I have to live with the back ache then.. :P

Monday, March 12, 2007

LiL' Star

By Kelis

There is nothing special about me
I am just a lil star
If it seems like I'm shining brightly
It's probably a reflection of something you already are
I forget about myself sometime
When there's so many other around
When deep inside you feels darkest
That is where I can always be found
That is where I can always be found
That is where I can always be found

Just keep trying and trying
It's just a matter of timing
Though the grinding is tiring
Don't let 'em stop you from smiling
Just keep trying and trying
Sooner or later you'll find it
It's surprising how inspiring
It is to see you shining
Cause in the dark of the night you're all i can see
and you sure look like a star to me

There is nothing special about me
I am just a lil starIf you try to reach out an touch me
you'll see I'm not really that far
I may not be the brightest nor am I the last one you’ll see
But as long as you notice, that’s just fine with me
Everything’s just fine with me
Everything’s just fine with me

Just keep trying and trying
It's just a matter of timing
Though the grinding is tiring
Don't let 'em stop you from smiling
Just keep trying and trying
Sooner or later you'll find it
It's surprising how inspiring
It is to see you shining
Cause in the dark of the night you're all i can see
and you sure look like a star to me

There is nothing special about me
I am just a lil star
I’ve been running and jumping, but barely
Getting, getting over the bar
I plan on being much more than I, am but that's in do time
But until then I'm guilty, and being humans my crime
Being human that is my crime
Being human that is my crime

Just keep trying and trying
It's just a matter of timing
Though the grinding is tiring
Don't let 'em stop you from smiling
Just keep trying and trying
Sooner of later you'll find it
It's surprising how inspiring
It is to see you shining
Cause in the dark of the night you're all i can see
and you sure look like a star to me

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Lights

It's the nights which teaches you to see the beauty of lights.

S l e e p w a l k e r

By The Wallflowers

Maybe I could be the one they adore
That could be my reputation
It's where I'm from that lets them think I'm a whore
I'm an educated virgin

Sleepwalker, don't be shy
Now don't open your eyes tonight
You'll be the one that defends my life
While I'm dead asleep dreamin'

Cupid, don't draw back your bow
Sam Cooke didn't know what I know
I'll never be your valentine
The sleepwalker in me
And God only know that
I've tried

Let me in, let me drown or learn how to swim
Just don't leave me at the window
I could be the one to be your next best friend
You may need someone to hold you

Sleepwalker, take this knife
You may see someone tonight
You'd be the one that saves my life
When I'm dead asleep dreamin'

Cupid, don't draw back your bow
Sam Cooke didn't know what I know
I'll never be your valentine
The sleepwalker in me
And God only know that I've tried

I'm in your movie and everyone looks sad
But I can hear you, your voice, the laughtrack
But you never saw my best scene
The one where I sleep
Sleepwalk into your dreams

Now, sleepwalker, what's my line
It's only a matter of time
Until I learn to open up my eyes
When I'm dead asleep dreamin'

Cupid, don't draw back your bow
Sam Cooke didn't know what I know
I'll never be your valentine
The sleepwalker in me

Now, the sleepwalker in me
Now, the sleepwalker in me
And God only know that I've tried

Somnambulism

The term somnambulism comes from the Latin words for sleep (somnus) and walking (ambulus). A typical sleepwalking episode is rather short. Sleepwalkers may simply appear awake, or exhibit complicated activity such as driving a car, while asleep.

Sleepwalking (also called noctambulism or somnambulism), under the larger category of parasomnia, is a sleep disorder where the sufferer engages in activities that are normally associated with wakefulness while asleep or in a sleeplike state. Sleepwalkers (somnambulists) are aroused out of their deep sleep during motor activity, which usually includes, but is not limited to, walking.

A sleepwalker can go back to sleep some place other than bed, depending on how far he or she has walked. Sleepwalkers are usually unaware of their activity. Some cases of autonomic (independently functioning) behavior that occur with sleepwalking involve dressing and even eating.

What causes sleepwalking is not known, though most people have sleepwalked on at least one occasion. Sleepwalking poses no serious health threat to those who experience it, although the risk of injury, however minor, is a matter of concern.